First, i would like to cover what has been going on. There has not been any life altering changes I have went through. There has been a lot of self reflection on my past, and a long with self-reflection, comes the realizations of my life. I don’t remember telling this, but about 6 months ago I realized I was socially awkward. How did I come to this conclusion? Well, I was in the shower and I was reflecting over my life. One of the main things I noticed is when I was in the neighborhood of 13 years old. I started drifting away from most of my friends. It was hard to realize something like this about yourself, and never see it for yourself until later in life. So - 27 years after it started, I FINALLY saw it for myself. What does it mean for me? Well, it means that I have to work a little harder to be close to people. Can you blame people for this? Of course you can, but in reality, it’s up to YOU to deal with yourself. So, although I have a good idea what caused this change in me; I do not blame the people that were involved. It’s just how I handled the difficult situation I was in at the time.
Jan 16, 2022
3 Month Check in So, it’s been 3 months since I started working, roughly. I started back part time on July 4th (what are the odds), and I went to full time 3 weeks after that. Since then… it’s been pretty good getting back into the grove… Then comes the learning curve that has been set upon me. With the amount of time I was gone, just about every aspect of the job has changed. Then put on top of that, having a new position and new scope, yea, it’s been a lot of learning.
Oct 24, 2021
At this point, I have been back to work for about 6 weeks. It’s been a difficult 6 weeks to get my stamina back up to what it needs to be.
Aug 15, 2021
Along this whole time…. my gi track has been in bad shape. We are talking to the point of asking yourself ‘What the fuck did I do to deserve this?’ I started seeing Asheville Gastro back around the October time frame. It started with reviewing my previous medical records… then moved on to Upper endo, GI acid test, esophageal study, and then started on Carafate (medication). I started the Carafate, and 4 days later, I was in the hospital for a blockage. That episode went for 2 weeks and covered two different hospitals.
Mar 25, 2021
With all the political shit going on, and it’s been largely on my mind. Why not talk about it? First and foremost, I think the whole system is corrupt. I have never voted, and will probably not vote until things have changed, drastically.
Feb 17, 2021
While the title says a lot, there is a fairly good story to go with this. While it was VERY apparent that I wasn’t able to be at work for me. I wasn’t able to convince my current doctor that I needed to be written back out. There was no reason for him not to write the note, as it would have saved a lot of hassle for me. Since he didn’t write the note, I spent the following 4 months answering questions, phone calls, and such explaining what kind of condition I was in.
Feb 8, 2021
Well, the title says a lot….. Thinking back on the whole process, it was a blessing that I went from Copestone to IOP. IOP ended up giving me tools that I didn’t even know I needed, until they were talking about them. FYI : I will be pursuing getting some of most of the content from the IOP program I went through, into the school systems. Anyways, back to the topic at hand. A nice woman came and saw me a few times in Copestone, which was the boarding process to get into the IOP program. There were a few of us that were the first ones to go through the process, so they were still figuring a few things out with us. Over all, the IOP program was a good experience.
Jan 9, 2021
TBD
Jan 7, 2021
There were several factors that weighed in on the decision to commit myself to Copestone Mental Hospital. All my life, I have suffered from depression and anxiety. I didn’t realize this until I started going through the IOP/PHP program that is part of Mission Hospitals, bought out by HCA.
Aug 31, 2020
Why start the blog? I want to share with people my experiences that I have went through. My life, as of right now, hasn’t been the way I thought it would turn out. This is something that I have found, is more common than we want to think.
Aug 22, 2020